what am i doing now???

seriously, ever since the new semester start, i seem to have more and more work piling up my sleeves, my table, my schedule, my mind!!! there are so many things and how many have i completed?? almost less than 1/10 of it.. what am i doing all these while?? having fun?? or is there really no time?? i can say both..

firstly, i regret not being active in yr 1.

secondly, i really admit i cant plan my time well.

thirdly, i really cant prioritise properly..

fourthly, even though i did prioritise, my heart and mind is elsewhere..

fifth, i really shouldnt be blogging now coz i have a 2 tests coming up this week and i havent start a shit! even if i did, i dun understand..

i really am starting to fear that i'll be repeating one more semester!!!

let me make a list of what i need to do this sem:

School:

  1. managerial accounting 2 assignment
  2. international business test
  3. international business research summary
  4. international business score collation
  5. internation business presentation
  6. international business report finalisation
  7. entrepreneurship test
  8. entrepreneurship research
  9. entrepreneurship report finalisation
  10. entrepreneurship presentation
  11. legal aspects articles analysis

GCC:

  1. financial statements finalisation
  2. learn how to write different statements
  3. call up some contacts
  4. plan events

D&D

  1. find more sponsors
  2. get more suppliers for keys
  3. follow-up with some other pending sponsors

seriously, there's more list than this, but i dun dare to put them down.. the numbers are scaring me.. i seriously have no idea what am i doing this semester.. invlive in otc, i-guides and have been more keen to have fun than to really put my whole heart and soul into schoolwork.. and to think i wanna do better this sem.. i think it will just be the worst semester..

have been stoning and more lost and blur as to what i need to do this semester.. yes, i've made more better friends, ppl whom i can rely on, ppl whom i can seek fun and be really happy and be myself.. but then again, i get very agitated and pissed off easily when it comes to work. y?? there's just way too many things to do!!! thought i really know my priorities well but guess i dun really.. indeed actions speak louder than words!!! sigh..

God will always be here to help me but am i allowing him??? no i suppose.. i cant even be bothered to pray for guidance anymore.. something that i've always believed so strongly in and something that always kept me going on, kept me feeling warm, yet i lost it to my stubborn and 'evil' personalit.. sigh..

Sunday, January 15, 2006 ; 1:23 AM


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