siao liao la.. have to be a 'model' and help me friend in her video!!! ok.. now this really gives me the creep!! heng its not for the whole school's view.. if it does, i'm so going to drop dead!!! sianz..

hmm, cant believe i broke down again last friday when i reached home.. feel so lousy and useless seriously.. sigh.. sometimes i really wonder if some ppl are doing this to really spite me?? or am i really being very very paranoid to what they are doing to me?? i really dunno... but should i care?? i also dunno.. i really dunno what to do.. someone said that friends come and go, but true friends will always be there.. but these ppl claimed they're true friends but they have long gone away.. sigh.. i dun even know if i should continue to be caring for them when they've long forgotten or rather not be bothered about me..

went out with darling san yesterday.. was supposed to ask layee out too but she had dinner with her friends.. hmm, had so much to catch up with her on.. and i cant believe i just spent $300 on just 2 eyecare products.. sianz.. well, i guess the phrase always goes: if you wanna look good, hard work needs to be put in.. something like that.. haha.. my gosh!!! i really need to do something about my skin.. it seems like the acne is coming back soon.. sigh.. guess no matter how many or how good the products are, as long as i'm stress, thats it!!...
hmm, bought 3 books: Where have all the boys gone, The A-Z of Us, Do you remember the first time? finally manage to get what i want somehow.. but there's still a longer list.. but currently, will pause til i've finished reading these 3 books before i head on to get more.. haha.. looks like sis' wish of opening up a library is drawing nearer and nearer each day.. haha..

hmm, sis asked what i wan for my birthday.. once again, i couldn't answer coz: firstly, i dunno what i wan.. secondly, there's too many things i wan but dunno which should i ask for.. thirdly, things i really wan, are not realistic.. sigh.. have been thinking and thinking of what i really wan but i still dunno.. hmm.. may have a long list but i guess it either requires a huge sum of money or a huge amount of strength to get it.. sigh..

then again, san says she wanna work on a cruiseship.. i'm more into events management but apparently many many ppl are against it.. reason being: you have no time for your BOYFRIEND (the very first sentence that everyone says!), you have no time for family, you have no time to rest, no time to play, no time to slack, just NO TIME! OMG!!! i also know no time but then you get to pick up a lot of learning skills and knowledge, experience, just everything! but of course when it comes to being able to acquire everything, means time is also everything, thats why no time.. sigh.. planning a few events in school is quite tiring so i really dun dare to imagine the real event planning in the working industry.. but i guess if i really wanna learn something, i gotta be able to sacrifice some things too.. but at the same time, i'm also keen in working in a cruise.. san says we'll send in resume everything together.. yup i guess so.. but i still dunno where i really wanna work.. there's so many industries i thought of but i can only choose 1 for the time being and work towards it.. afterall, i'm not working for life.. i still need to work towards university too.. sianz... really lost.. but guess for now, studies still come first..

was reading a few blogs just now and was reading the tags.. found some really funny.. haha.. ppl just talk crap and crap and crap.. it may not seem funny to the person writing it but it looks funny to the reader (or is it cos i always have a a few laughs to this?) but anyway, sometimes i really wonder is it good to read other ppl's blog when i dun even want them to know mine?? hmm.. but then again, i still prefer to leave this a secret to some ppl.. hmm, and looks like i dun have to shut down this blog since this is like my 2nd entry?? hmm.. next week is hols for me, confirm will write a few..

talking about hols, i'm so going to be moving into the direction of death!!! suddenly have so many reports to do!!! sip report, gcc proposal for receipt, gcc camp preparation, international business research, entrepreneurship report, sponsorships.. siao liao.. then following got camp! OMG!! this sem, confirm wun be able to get more than 5 hours of sleep every night and i'm so sure that history will repeat itself this sem.. oh dear oh dear.. well, God Bless Me i suppose...

(0) comments