relieved yet very very sad..
ok first thing.. i'm so relieved that finally something is already on my way since feb.. haha.. finally.. OMG...
ok, next, let me take a look back this year.. just how many breakups there were.. i suppose i've seen 5 to 8 breakups??? and they are all my best pals.. OMG.. this year is definitely not a very good year was it??
the reasons o breakup can be so stupid sometimes.. cant commit, feelings fade, 3rd party bla bla bla.. seriously, if one knows that he/she cant commit, then y start when u know the other party can commit... feelings fade?? that i cant comment, but i guess its due to lack of quality time?? but whats the reason behind lack of quality time? too busy? prefer friends?? well, then again, excuses... if you dun wanna be tied down, dun start one then.. coz of 3rd party?? then i guess that person can go bang the wall??
all these breakup that i've experienced once for myself and those that i've seen around me, makes me feel that love is not such a beautiful thing anymore.. now i feel so numbed that i dun wanna open up to anyone anymore.. y? coz i'm scared i'll experience the same thing once again.. i know love hurts.. but sometimes the pain is just too much to bear... its to painful to restart and feel it again..
its true that when you have several relationships before, you are anticipating the breakup but sometimes u just wan it to last forever but it never did.. i feel so sad, so sad that i'm afraid to love once again.. so sad to open up myself to the person whom i've always wanted to be with (should there be any)..
i dun wanna see anymore of this.. guess its too pain and sad to see it once again..
Tuesday, October 25, 2005 ; 9:55 PM
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