OMG.. am i really that tired???
alright.. first thing most of my colleagues ask,"You are very tired right?" dots.. does my looks really say that i'm tired?? oh well, i am tired.. really tired..
but tired from what?? my troubles, sip assignment, gcc event planning as well as dnd planning.. oh dear.. i'm really very sleepy.. nearly couldn't wake up every day, late for work for about 10 mins, but thank god, they dun really mind..
but i'm really so tired that i had to go up to the canteen to get a cup of milo instead.. OMG... i really need a lot of sleep but then again, i have so many meetings and discussions to attend, need to go around doing research and collecting feedback.. nowadays have been reaching home close to midnight and mum is really not happy.. havent been eating at home for weeks thats one of the reason and coming home late, not talking to them much or coming home after they went to bed.. chances of communications and being able to see them when i get home is starting to get lesser and lesser and this makes mum and dad angry and sad.. it makes me sad too..
but sometimes when i'm able to go home early, i dun feel like.. if not, i'll tend to lock myself up in the room, doing research and doing school stuff.. sis called yesterday night but i was too tired and sleepy to talk that brother had to tell her that i'm going to sleep, dun wish to talk.. sorry sis..
i love my family too much bu yet i'm hurting them.. what a 'good' daughter i am.. i promised to be good and obedient but i still fail to do it.. i feel so sad, and angry at myself.. i'm taking them for granted.. haiz..
Wednesday, October 19, 2005 ; 10:02 PM
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