i'm sitting back..
firstly, thanks for layee for always being there for me.. but i guess i wun be talking much yet coz i really need to sort out my life.. i guess this time, i just want to take all the burdens myself and literally solve all of them.. yes i admit i'm scared that i'll fail, i'm scared to do all these alone but i have no choice.. these revolves around only me.. i dun wish to drag anymore ppl with me.. it'll pain me to see them being burdened as well.. nevertheless, thank you and should there ever be a day i really cant hold on any longer, please be there by my side..
next, i'm just too tired to do anymore initiatings.. Y is it always me??? Y do i always have to plan everything.. and when ppl agree, they dun want to help me out.. then what for???and no one seems to be able to agree on something.. i'm just too tired of all this.. i'm doing my best but the other parties never tried to put in their best, always sitting back and wait.. of course i'm not saying everyone are like this.. at least now there are some ppl who are willing to ask first and not order me to start something..
so i guess now, its my turn to sit back and wait.. then again, i guess nothing is going to be achieved..
apparently, 3 school events are on the running for me.. and now i'm trying to juggle these 3 on top of my sip assignment.. its definitely not going to be easy.. its hard for me to reach out to my committee and its hard for me to do all 4 at the same time when working time is almost entirely spent on research and analysing my sip report..
have been reaching home at midnight for the past 1 week which i guess it'll continue for the next few weeks.. and i'm really not getting enough sleep.. upon reaching home still need to think about the school events.. oh my gosh!!! i dun even have time to write my log book!!! oh dear...
then again, i guess i kinda like the busy life.. i've always thought i work better under stress. but i guess this may be too much somehow.. i'm already forgoing so many projects that i'm interested.. sigh.. oh well.. i guess once the committees are formed, i can somehow relax and oversee the things instead of having to worry how i should start and where...
Sunday, October 23, 2005 ; 4:15 AM
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