Really sorry for all that i've done
haiz, if i hadn't been told about how you felt, i really didnt expect it..
i guess i'm really so sorry and i'm the insensitve one who didnt think of your feelings before writing my thoughts down on this blog.. I've been complaining non stop all in my own view.. never cared about how you would feel reading it.. really didnt expect my sentences could lead to so many misinterpretations..
i never would have thought you'd read my blog all this while.. maybe you have stopped reading now i dunno, but i do hope this will be your last blog to read.. i had never thought you'll misinterpret on the part where i said i'll never give up unless you did first.. my point here is that no matter where this relationship leads to, i'll always hang on no matter how painful it is, coz i believe that one day, everything will be great at the end, but didnt expect that you'd think i wanted a breakup..
never thought so many of my blog entries could lead to so many misinterpretation.. and we never bothered to clear it up.. why? coz we THINK that either party could not take it.. i guess i didnt try hard enough to actually try to talk about it.. because all i did was i ASSUMED... it was all assumptions and i actually believed they were true without trying it..
guess we both really start out on the wrong track. started out when we both were really busy with our own things, started out without any ground rules like no secrets, just voice out any thoughts bla bla bla.. haiz..
we both have different thinking, different lifestyles, guess it was really hard for us to clique afterall..
i really dunno why, i just wanna give myself a 2nd chance again, but i guess its really best if i dun coz you have no more feelings already and i dun wan to go through the ordeal anymore.. i'm not that strong and independent afterall..
just one last sentence, though it may seemed insincere, but i guess its really hard for me to say it straight to your face.. guess now i really know how you feel.. once again, I'm really terribly sorry for being so insensitive and demanding.
Wednesday, July 27, 2005 ; 8:47 AM
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